Salsa Twirls- a reminder to ask for what you want

As my brain continues to heal there are more moments where I feel connected to me- the joyful, lovebug who loves to meet people and have new experiences. Tonight I went salsa dancing and my brain wanted to leave after just awhile- but I stayed. i stayed through the intro class where i learned the basics along with a few twirls. I was the lead even though I wanted to learn to follow. I want to learn how to let the man lead so I can relax and be guided on the dance floor. To feel that experience of surrender and trust and vulnerability. 

So the intro class ends and then it is open dance. The ratio is almost 2:1 women to men. So I sit for awhile, waiting to be asked to dance. No go. I am tempted to leave and give myself 10 minutes to sit and if no one asks me to dance then I will go. Meanwhile some new folks have joined in and boy can they dance! I love sitting there watching them. This older couple, twisting and turning and smiling and laughing. Magic. And I want to experience it- so I look for one of the better dancers and go ask him to dance. He lets me know I can relax as he twirls me and moves me all around the dance floor. 

This is fun. It's fun to feel sexy as I move my hips and let go to the music and John's lead. 

The song end and John and I part ways. Brain is ready to go, Kim wants to dance like that again. So I ask another man and again, he is twirling me around the floor. So fun. 

I'm so glad I stayed and got in my dances rather than just coming home because my brain wanted to. It was great to push myself and to feel alive! 

So here's to more universe, thank you so very much for the twirls tonight.

coming back to my writing, praying to come back to my joy

The last year and a half has been filled with health challenges that I am just now moving through. hence why I have been so quiet. I just started writing again on Facebook and thought it would be a great time to share my writing via this website again. So here is a recent post - more to come.

Hello friends. its been awhile. i seem to have forgotten my writing. i used to love sitting in front of my fireplace in london, all cozied up and writing, creating. As much as I am feeling better- i still feel disconnected from magical parts of myself. the pieces i had worked so hard to find and reclaim. passing out chocolate bars, RYW cards, sticking love caper cards in food packaging at grocery stores. ukulele hunting.

I was filled with joy. and i miss it. and I'm not quite sure how to get it back. I've been doing my best to be grateful, to be alive, to find peace at being back in seattle for awhile. music doesn't move me like it used to.

anyway...just here to start writing again. sharing, hoping to find my way back to me.

may you all have deep love and joy today


get messy, get real, heal

Part of reclaiming your wild is speaking your truth, feeling all there is to tell, being honest, vulnerable, messy, brave.

It’s so time for all of us to reclaim our wild and create harmony and healing in the world
#reclaimyourwild #itstime

Joy and love are important parts of this healing movement

Today I was lucky enough to watch an incredible interview with Tarana Burke, the founder of the #metoo movement. She talked so eloquently about so many things. One of her points is that this is the time of healing as a movement. That all of this is coming up so we can be healed and that to do that we need copious amounts of joy and love. For when we do that deep dive in the dark we also need joy and love to bring us back to the surface and to more than we were before. I love that. I love that this is a time of healing as a movement, as a moment. and that we must include everyone in this movement, men too. 

I was humbled to be in that room at the world muse conference in Bend, Oregon and now humbled again to be in a room of a woman I met tonight. When I walked out the door I was startled to see so much snow and thought again about driving back to Seattle. I checked Kayak for hotel deals and they were pretty pricey in Bend. I ran into Laura on my way back into the event and told her what was happening and she offered me her guest room. Which is where I type this from. Cuddled up after meeting her lovely husband, talking about travels to Ireland and Scotland and sipping some sleepy time tea. And even the drive here was scary I can't imagine if I had tried to drive the Mt Hood pass. So my bag of love and joy gets bigger as I continue to deal with brain challenges that are getting so intense and scary at times. So far from me being me. I want to soak up these moments and remind myself of how I know I can be in the world. Of the magic the world has for me. Of how I have done so much healing so I can be a person who can share my path and hopefully support others along the way.

I want to come back to me and play my part in this healing movement. 

so here's to #metoo and #notokay and #reclaimyouwild and #lovecapersand the others thousands upon thousands of hashtags that are helping with this moment to heal, to break the silence, to share, to weep, to dance, to sob, to rage, to sing, to play. Here's to this moment. more please

Clean water is wild hearted love

For my birthday I desire to help people in Ecuador have access to clean water. I desire to raise $1000 for, which buys 20 filters and provides sustainable water solutions to disadvantaged communities in the Amazon Rainforest, Andes Highlands, the Galapagos, and the coastal region affected by the 2016 earthquake.

Here's to more people having access to clean water so our brothers and sisters can drink, cook, clean with greater ease.

Do you want to help?

1. You can donate on the page below and/or

2. You can join me as a Teammate and fundraise for 10 filters, that's $500. Your raise will impact 1000 people with clean water for up to 10 years.

The Waterbearers is a 501(c)(3) that provides portable clean water systems around the world. Since 2016 their efforts have reached over 650,000 people with clean water through strategic partnerships and in-country organizations. Learn more